the bland emotional sterility of her life. By the time she entere college, her rebellion against the conservative Establishment and the conventional status-quo brought her into muted but open conflict with her parents and what they stood for.

They wanted her to have a debut into society and then marry some nice your man from a proper family of acceptable backround and adequate financial assets. But Pattie ea to learn more about the world before sheantsettled down, and going away to college would help in that. When she was accepted, her parents arranged for her to live in a luxurious apartment near the campus where she would be safe from the Aisrupting influences of the radical students who abounded at the college.

Pattie endure this isolation from the mainstream of life at the university for most of her first year, but then she met and fell in love with Clayton Archibald, a stuWhat fascinHent a few years older than she. ated Pattie most about Clay was his active and highly emotional involvement in politics and the political activism in the college. He was violently against Viet Nam, against the Establishment as represented by Pattie's wealthy and influential father, against all the obvious abuses of power, against the privileges available to those who had money, against the power of the police to enforce laws that he considered unjust or un-necessary, and against any evidence of inequality of opportunity for any citizen, of any race, creed, or color.

Although she found it extremely ifficult, Pattie tries to adopt his attitudes. She learne to parrot the words of his philosophy, but she could never really feel the way he i about many things. It was not that she

felt she was superior to those around her; it was merely that her cultural heritage and childhood experiences made her feel that she did not have to tolerate crude unpleasant people or situations. She didn't want to harm anyone, no matter how unacceptable they might be to her socially, she just wanted to observe such people objectively from a distance.

As soon as Pattie and Clay found themselves emotionally involved, he assumed that they would have an affair and live together. She knew that many other girls in such things but it was so far from her moral training that she could not bring herself to do it at first. It was only when she realize that being the sexual mate of the man she thought she loved would be overt and blatant rebellion against all she is approved of in her parents, that she gave in. Unmarrie sex would prove to the whole world that she was a truly modern girl, not a stuffy conservative like her rich and famous family.

She move out of her expensive apartment into Clay's much less sunotious one. But the guilts and inhibitions of a lifetime are not unlearned in one night. Clay was surprised and alarmed to find she was a virgin, and he tried to initiate her gently into the joys of carnal pleasures. At first he was not wholly successful. Because she love him, Pattie liked the closeness of lying beside him at night. But the actual process of intercourse did not turn her on. She knew he needed the physical release her body could provide and she gave it as well as she could bring herself to do it. She enjoyed love, but she could not actively enjoy sex. Under the circumstances it seemed too. sinful.

Clay was getting more and more involved with subversice political activities around